Saturday, December 29, 2007


I can't believe the drama that pops up in cyberland. It never ceases to amaze me. I have enough drama in my own life. Why, oh why, would I want to seek it out in cyber/blog/forum land?

Thursday, December 27, 2007

It's rare, but I was at a loss for words!

Let me set the scene for you. It is Christmas morning. We are at my parents house. My sister brought her rottweiler puppy (9 months and about 90lbs) to enjoy the festivities. Everyone has opened their presents and most of the family is now in the kitchen, making the wonderful Christmas breakfast.

Lil Bug is sitting in the middle of the living room floor, playing with one of her new favorite toys. She looks up and sees Yenko (the rotty) standing in front of her. He is looking the same direction as Bug, but in front of her, so essentially, Bug is looking at his behind. He has no tail, so his bottom is fully exposed.

Lil Bug is looking at Yenko very strange and kind of tilting her head a little. Finally, after much thinking and with a confused look on her face she louding asks, "Mommy, why he have two balls right there?"

My sister, her boyfriend and I were all shocked...dead silent (if you know my sister and me, silence is a rarity!!!). Then we all broke out laughing. I couldn't come up with anything to say, so finally, after she asked me for a second time I told her, "go as your nana!" Bug was on her way to the kitchen to inquire when by the grace of God, she was distracted by some other toys and completely forgot all about her anatomical question. Thank God!!!!!!!

Wednesday, December 26, 2007


I am looking forward to blogging about Christmas 2007, but I am exhausted still. I will soon though. I promise!


I am so content...I love my life. Sure, I have a bad day here or there, but I am such a blessed woman. I have a husband with whom I have had the rare opportunity to have grown up with. I have a beautiful, intelligent, humorous 3 year old daughter who brings smiles to my face day-after-day. I have a 4 month old baby who completes me and never ceases to amaze me. Seriously, I couldn't ask for anything more. I want for NOTHING.

Outsiders may not be able to appreciate my life. In fact, I will blog more about this later, but many times strangers would be terrified of my life. But, this is MY LIFE and I wouldn't change it for a million dollars.

Dear Heavenly Father,

Thank you for the blessings you bestow upon my family day after day. You see each one of us as so important and valuable. Thank you, God, for the little things. Thank you that Bug loves to read. Thank you that Princess is such a smiley baby. Thank you that The Designer has a stable job and provides for our family. Thank you that our church is Biblically sound and growing. Thank you for the material comforts in our lives...our cars, our house, our "stuff." But most importantly, dear God, thank you for your Son, Jesus Christ. Thank you for my salvation. Thank you for the promise that when my earthly life is over, I will have the privilege of standing face-to-face with you and you will be able to judge me for what I have done or haven't done in this life. Thank you for hope. Thank you for healing. Thank you for hearing my prayers, my cries, my laughter. Thank you for caring about me. Thank you for reminding me that I matter in this life.

I love you Lord Jesus.

Humbly yours,
The Professor

Friday, December 21, 2007

The man with the mustache

Lil Bug has never once mentioned a dream or a nightmare to us. She is 3 years and a couple of months old. I would have guessed that by now she would have experienced a dream and/or a nightmare and been able to identify it, but that hasn't happened.

Today, she was taking her nap after we got back from school and after about 15 minutes she woke up crying. When I went into her room she said the man with the mustache was scaring her and she didn't want him in her room.

The man with the mustache? What!?!?! So, I asked her about the man and she said that he has a big mustache and screams and screams and screams. I was concerned upon hearing this. Immediately I am thinking about who she has been around and what she may have been exposed to. I ask for more details.

Me: Where did you see the man with the big mustache?

Bug: Once upon a time there was a man with a mustache and he was going to be on t.v.

Me: So you saw him on tv?

Bug: Yes and then he screamed and screamed!

Me: Who was he screaming at?

Bug: The people who pulled his mustache!

Me: What else happened and where were you when you saw it on tv?

Bug: I was sitting on the carpet square and he came on tv and I turned around so I didn't have to see him. He scared me. He was on the train and there were penguins.

Me: *ah, I think I might get it now...she was at school and they watched The Polar Express!* I asked her if that was it and she said yes.

So, everything is settled...good to go! Not quite that fast. She woke up because in her dream (or nightmare) the man with the mustache was in her room and she could NOT get him out of her mind. I told her I promised to not let the man in her room and she made me stand guard at her door until she returned to sweet slumber. She slept for a little over an hour, but the first thing out of her mouth when she woke up was, "did the man come into my room?"

We did some errands after her nap and she talked and talked and talked about the man...she is still talking about him NONSTOP and it has been several hours now. I think that it might help to rent/buy The Polar Express and watch it with her. Or, maybe getting the book for her to look through will be enough. I don't know, but I feel bad she was scared by the man and I am so tired of hearing the same story over and over and over again.

Any suggestions?!?!?


I asked N way back if she would be willing to request a copy of Lil Princess' OBC so we could have a copy. She was very kind in saying, "of course." For whatever reason, she hasn't been able to get down to the county clerk's office to get it. So, earlier this week I asked her if she wanted to go together to do it today and she said, "yes."

After picking up Lil Bug from school, we headed over to get N. We were supposed to go straight to the clerks office, but I had to change the plans when I realized that Bug is most likely coming down with a bladder infection again. So, we headed to the lab to deposit a urine sample. Then we headed home for Bug to take a nap (she is NOT pleasant to be around if she doesn't get her nap!). We ate lunch at the house and just visited.

It was a unplanned, relaxed, wonderful visit with N. We laughed, shed a couple of tears and talked a lot. She got to see Lil Princess starting to sit up on her own, eating some rice cereal and playing with her new toys. Did I mention how wonderful the visit was??? :)

After Lil Bug woke up from her nap (the 2nd time...she had a nightmare in the middle that really had her wound up) we loaded up the girls and headed to the clerks office where we marched in and politely requested copies of the OBC. We were unsure if we would be able to get them as TPR was signed eons ago, but since we have not finalized, it was easy as pie. The lady behind the desk knew who each of us were and addressed N as mom, which was good. :) She handed over two copies of the OBC and away we went.

I am so relieved that Princess will have this document. Since she will always know N, I am not sure if she will find the value in it or not, but I do know that if she wants it, she has it. If we were unsuccessful today, she would never have access to it as the current Michigan laws would not allow her access when she was older.

I am so happy right now. :)

Sitting on Jesus' lap

Many of you that frequent one of the boards I frequent have read about little Ellie Skees in the prayer request section. I started following her blog nearly 1 year ago. At that time, she was fairly newly diagnosed with neuroblastoma. A very aggressive, painful cancer.

I have never met Ellie in person. I have never met any of her family in person. Even so, I feel a connection to them. Maybe it is because I am a mother and have come close a couple of times to losing my own daughter, Bug. Maybe it is a spiritual connection. I don't really know, but I do know that I feel some connection. Her mother so beautifully documented this little girls journey for the past year. It is evident to me that she and her family love Jesus. It is evident to me that Jesus carried them when they couldn't carry themselves. It is evident to me that God took good care of this family, even though, from an outside perspective, the death of their 9 year old daughter doesn't feel like they were well taken care of.

Every day I would read their blog and cry. Sometimes tears of sadness, sometimes tears of joy. When I read that she finally danced her way into Heaven, I had both kind of tears. She will never suffer from pain again. She will never have to have chemo, needles, doctors poking and proding or anything else that goes along with cancer. On the sad side of that coin, her parents will never have Ellie to hug, to talk to, to laugh with, to eat dinner with and so much more.

I am certain that Ellie's mom will never read my blog. She has way too much stuff going on in her life right now to bother. She has no idea who I am or that my blog even exists. However, if I could talk to her, I would say thank you. Thank you for being so real, so raw in sharing this long journey with us. Thank you for allowing me the honor of praying for your family. Thank you for reminding me how special our children are in such a special, unique way. Thank you for being honest with us. Thank you for being patient with us. Thank you for loving Ellie so much that you released her into the arms of our loving Jesus. I am certain Ellie thanks you too.

If you are up to it, read her blog....go back and read. I guarantee you will cry. But, it is a life changing blog. Seriously, life changing! I will forever be a better person for having "known" Ellie through this blog. If you are not up for the read, please PRAY FOR THIS FAMILY. Ellie has a 5 year old brother and trying to help him understand this is going to be a huge challenge, but God is up to the task.

Friday, December 14, 2007

The BIG Production!!!

As I mentioned in a previous blog, Lil Bug had a Christmas production at her school last night. Her very first one! It was just the preschoolers, so it didn't last very long. I was unable to attend because I had to teach. :( The Designer, his parents, my parents and Lil Princess went and The Designer did record it for me, so it was almost like being there.....NOT!

I have uploaded a couple of short videos so you can see just how incredibly cute she really is!!!!! I have to admit, I am the luckiest mommy in the world. :D

Tuesday, December 11, 2007


My girls are doing well! Lil Bug seems to be more settled in her role as big sister. Lil Princess seems to be adjusting well to being the baby in the family.

Lil Bug has her first school program on Thursday evening and I don't get to go because I have to work. I am so sad and if I dwell on it, I get tears in my eyes. The Designer, his parents and my parents are all going (and Princess, of course!) Bug probably won't even miss me. The thing that bothers me the most, I think, is that I literally only work 4 hours each week so that I can be a full time mom and here I am missing something so important to me. BLAH!

Princess has her 4 month dr. appointment on Friday. I am looking forward to seeing how much her little booty weighs. She is a big girl! I love her rolls on her legs. :D She is trying to sit up (like doing sit-ups) but isn't strong enough. She rolls from her belly to her back, but that isn't consistent yet. When she is on, she's on! She will do it over and over and over again. Then she will not do it for a long while. She has rolled from her back to belly once, but realized she hates being on her belly and has not tried to replicate that again, lol.

That is about all I can think of right now to update you on, so I will just shower you with some pics of my beautiful girls!

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Wednesday, December 5, 2007

google searches

After reading other blogposts highlighting the google searches other people have used to stumble upon their blog, I was curious and decided to take a look myself. This is what I found (between 11/28 and now):

* "Things that happened during a voyage"
* *there was a search for photos of siblings that pulled some of my pics up* Scary glad I don't use names on my blog!!!
* "she's lovely for wedding"
* "old money valuation"
* "Spina Bifida diapers"
* "alive and well the spirit is within me worship song"

Ok, so those pretty much are all over the board, huh?

Tuesday, December 4, 2007


I don't really have anything super exciting, but I haven't blogged in a week, so I figured I would write a few bits of randomness.

Our family is going to Florida in February and I am SOOOO excited. It will be Lil Princess' first airplane ride. Lil Bug is a pro on the plane, but will be nearly a year since her last flight by the time we go. We are going to be staying on Santa Maria Island in a beautiful Villa with a pool about 1 block off the beach. I can feel the warm sunshine on my face already!

Lil Bug:
She is feeling better. After they grew out the urine culture, they realized the antibiotic they originally put her on wouldn't help this particular bug, so they changed it. She seems a lot better, but we still have several more days of meds.

Lil Princess:
Is consistently sleeping through the night! She still gets up pretty early, but I can deal with that. Today she was up at 6am, which isn't horrible, just not my preference.

We have NOTHING on the calendar for today, which is extremely rare for us. So, when Lil Bug woke up this morning, we talked and decided to just go visit the library. We own hundreds of books, but it is always nice to go to the library and get a few new ones to drift off into another world for a little while.

The class I teach is almost over. We have three more Thursday's and then we are done! Praise God! I am certain I will never teach this class again. It was by far the least favorite of all classes I have taught. The students are nice enough people, but business math is not my favorite subject!

Lil Bug and I started wrapping Christmas presents yesterday. We have about 1/2 of them wrapped. I obviously wrapped hers while she was napping. We wrapped Lil Princess' right in front of her. We figured, if (and that is a BIG if) she had a clue, she would forgive us, but being that she is not even 4 months old, it's all good! Lil Bug and I are trying to figure out what she wants to buy her daddy for Christmas. He is a hard person to buy for! We have some thinking to do on that one.

How's that for randomness?!?! Enjoy your day.